I have no clue what I am doing or even what this is for. But I guess I must start somewhere. How about we start here! I can’t spell, type, write, and I am barely able to read. Trust me, ask anyone I know…lol! Just bear with me as I am just a man that found his way onto a computer. Overall, I feel that I have something to say. I honestly don’t even know how I got to this exact spot typing here today. There have been so many amazing things that have happened to me. I have a family! I served in the U.S. Navy for 20 years traveling the world. I am almost done with a bachelor’s degree that I have been working towards for 22 years (Yeah… 22 years). I feel like I have lived a full life already that most only dream about. I now realize that I have a long life ahead of me with so many uncertainties and I am scared and excited. I have been so blessed and will not complain about any of those things.

Very recently I have run into the hardest and darkest point of my life, and I don’t know how to work through them by myself. I didn’t even know it at the time but it could have been the end of everything. How did I get here? Why am I so lost, when I had everything? This is me; I am lost, sad, depressed, super emotional, happy, fucking pissed, strong, weak, excited, bald, a little obese, quiet, loud, and really every other emotion, feeling, or carry self-doubt that is possibly human. But God has come into my life recently and here I am today. I guess I will see where it takes me, and I want to write about my experiences as I go through them and I guess ramble at times about things that got me to the lowest and highest points of my life so far.

I think that I want to make some guidelines for myself. None of these are in any order and they are all just as important.

#1- I will follow God every day because I now know that I don’t just believe in God, I “KNOW” he’s there. How did I get here? This is a very new feeling and I will explain as I go.

#2- I don’t care if anyone reads this. If somehow it helps anyone that is a blessing. Be you and don’t change because a person changes you, change because God is changing you!

#3- Don’t talk directly about your family and what we go through. But touch on things that I have learned from my family and all the other families that I have served with over the years. The things that I feel are because of me and this is what I want to be writing about. I want to make me better!

#4- My kids are awesome!!! Being a parent is extremely hard, but they have turned out way better than I ever expected. I love watching them grow everyday into the men that they are becoming. I don’t ever want to lose that in my life. They are stuck with me forever. As parents, I think that we are the reason that parenting is hard, not them. So be there for them every day and listen.

#5- Yes, I use curse words. I’m sorry but I’m a sailor and a simple-minded sinner. I will work on it I promise, when I am made to. Update 8Jun: Well that was fast. Guess I won’t be using as many curse words anymore.

#6- I have no clue where I am going to go when typing but I guess that’s ok because I have no clue where I’m going in life either. Embrace that and see where it takes you.

#7- Live life to the fullest every day! Write when it feels right and don’t make it everything.

#8- Fuck depression. Use that as motivation.

#9- Change these guides any time you want!

#10- Don’t read the comments! So, if anyone has something mean to say, that’s not on me! Some people are haters but these are their feelings and their truths. Share with others your feelings and don’t let others break you down. Update: People are awesome!!!!

#11- Once you get to the point that there is no longer anything important to say then stop saying anything. Your message has been sent, don’t over do it, don’t make up things! You will know when this has happened but until then scream to the world!

#12- more guides to come… plus I did not want to end on a odd number.

In closing, I don’t know what I am talking about when it comes to anything. I’m just going to write about what is happening to me from a lost man’s perspective on his way to finding his true self. I don’t know what I am doing, so don’t expect me to be perfect! I have been trying to live in a perfect world for to long and I am fucking over it.

God Bless,

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